It is easy for me (and for all of us) to feel down. It's easy to let the bad things in our lives outweigh the good things. And then I get a reminder of just how lucky I am.
It's memorial day. And yes, I am as excited as the rest of the US for summer's big kick-off cookouts and pool openings. But I am also reminded of how lucky I am that my husband is alive and here with me(albeit in spirt, since he's on his way to 29 Palms...). Many others have not lived through their deployments, and I am thankful for them, and I mourn for their wives and families. I am sure it doesn't get any easier to deal with the loss, even if I'm thankful. But it certainly couldn't hurt.
I still struggle with days that I feel so angry, sad and "why me" about the loss of our baby this year. And then I am reminded of how much worse it is for others. I didn't have a chance to meet my baby. My baby was never meant to live on this Earth. But others, like Lindsay who I've mentioned before, not only got to meet their sons, but also lived with them and had to cope with the sudden loss of their child. I cannot imagine (and hope that I never have to) what it must be like. I was reminded of this today when I read Lindsay's latest blog entry asking for prayers for Owen's mom and dad as they lay their baby to rest. Heart braking.
Andrew and I in the past few months have become much better at talking about how thankful we are for all of the good things in our lives. If you're reading this, you're one of the things we're thankful for. I know it's not Thursday, so maybe you weren't planning to be Thankful on Monday. But it is Memorial Day. So take a moment.
I love this song and this video. However, my husband is not a "Soldier," he is a Marine. So I feel the need to end this song with a small added token of my appreciation to him and all of our Marine Corps family.
SEMPER FI.
3 comments:
A wonderful entry Ash...and definitely thanks to Ace and all those who serve and defend our country. I wish him safe travels and you a happy Memorial Day!
I read Lindsay's blog every day, too. Still praying for you two, all the time. XO!
So behind...but LOVE this entry!
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