Welcome to the Thursday before Spring Break where the teachers are fried, the kids are insane, and everyone is just plain D-O-N-E. Admittedly today I had a moment where I felt quite guilty (I've mentioned my amazing ability to feel guilty, right?) that I was feeling done, because I was home for 5 weeks during this long stretch of time without a break that all of my peers had endured. But we've almost made it. When we all wake up tomorrow it will be mere hours of chaos to suffer through (and maybe even enjoy?) before we can leave it all behind for a week!

This week has been full of ups and downs. I have to say that most of the down moments this week have been more akin to what I felt during our years of trying to get pregnant rather than the past few months after losing the baby. If you've had the misfortune of struggling to get pregnant you already know how I've felt during those down times.....you see the happy baby in Target and it makes your heart ache for what you haven't been blessed with yet, you see the parent making choices you KNOW you'd never make and you wonder "why do THEY get to have children," you hope and you wish and you pray and then when its time for that time of the month you are actually scared to go to the bathroom because you might start your period and that means you have to hope for next month. Here's the only thing that's different now. Occasionally, we get a reminder of just how close we got:

And then that sucks. A lot.

Now the positives for the past few days....its time to be thankful on Thursday.

~We get tax refunds! Don't you just love it when you find out you don't have to pay?!

~I am so thankful for Kelly. You made my day today at work with the fun fonts. My next mission is to figure out how to use them on here.... You make every day at work so much better with your smiles and fun comments as I pass by your desk. So thankful for you!

~I've gotta be thankful for Melissa again this week. Lunch together on Wednesday made me feel so much better about the meeting...and when we were in the meeting I wasn't sure that anything was going to make that meeting feel better.

~Da Hubs. Spending time with you and and Chestnut is my favorite part of every day. I just know that someday in the not so distant future we're actually going to get to add one to our little family.

~Christine. I appreciate you stopping by to check on me. I appreciate your card last week. And I just thank you for making every day at work a little happier.

~2nd Grade team. You guys are the greatest people to work with. Ever.

~I am SO thankful that baby Thomas is doing much better! Ashley, you are so strong and such an amazing mom.

~This one may be TMI...but too bad! You're getting it anyway. I'm thankful for a 28 day cycle. It means that there's hope. By the truckload. That's right. Truckload.

Happy Friday :-)